A couple of weeks ago I filed for my divorce. I kept telling myself that I wouldn’t do it I would wait and let him but in the end I knew that it was past time to let him and that life go. He no longer loves me and to be honest I think that my feelings have finally changed towards him. The hurt and the pain was simply all too much and the need to move forward was simply greater than anything else. So now I facing the problems and hassles that come with all of that. I have all of his stuff packed up and put into storage so that he can get it and am waiting to find out what the situation with the kids will become.
The older children are my step-children although him and I have custody and I don’t know what will happen there as of yet. Although he has made no effort to change the current living arrangements and to be honest I don’t think that he will. If nothing else I know that he wants what is best for all of the kids. The biggest thing is finding the strength to get through all of it. The last few weeks I have just felt drained, like just all of the energy is just gone. I get up and just don’t want to work at all. But I am pushing through and I think that once I find my own rhythm a little more I will be alright. I know that this is the right path for me and I will tackle each hill as it comes.