2024 Reflection

As I sit here and write looking back over 2024 I have to say it was a year full of trials and tribulations for me. It started off full of promise and hope but I feel like I dropped the ball so many times last year that it not even funny. I decided I would pick out a few things to both be thankful for and this I would rather not have happened or at least not be something that happens this year.

The Good

• I began reading the bible fully last year. I had never done that before and something just called me to do it. I didn’t start until late in the year but am feeling good about that.
• I paid off a couple of debts. I know that sounds so silly but I have a lot of medical bills and have been working on those. Also my washing machine broke last year and I had to scramble to get a new one. I ended up putting it on credit when I didn’t really want to and was determined to get it paid off. I can say that the Wednesday before Thanksgiving that baby became mine. Washing machines are expensive nowadays!
• We had the best Christmas. We didn’t put a tree up or really do anything at all. There were no presents, after all we are all adults, We slept late, I did cook a ham and all the trimmings but all in all we did nothing that day except spend the day together. It was quiet and honestly something I think we all needed.

The Bad

• I fought a lot with my sister. We have always argued but in the last few months of the year things really became strained. In fact the couple of days before Christmas she picked a fight and things got a bit out of hand. To the point that my mother took my side (which is something she has never, if ever, done in my life against my sister). Families are complicated at the best of times and at this point I am not sure if things can be mended. Maybe they can be mended but I think the relationship will have to change.
• I only took one trip last year. I usually take two but last year I only took one and it for a week. I went and babysat (I use that term loosely as he is a teenager) my nephew will my brother and his wife went away for a week. It was a good trip but it didn’t really feel like a vacation. I don’t know I had been doing more than one trip each year but like I said last year was just an off year for me.
• My ex came back. He showed up out of the blue and was all lovey dovey. Honestly had I not had the flu I wouldn’t have even opened the door. That’s my excuse. He told me how much he missed me, and blah, blah, blah. He missed me because he wanted something. I don’t know what it was but eh was after something and expected me to fall in line like I always did. It took him about twenty minutes of me not saying the right thing or being dressed the way he would have preferred because he showed his true colors. I stood my ground though and I am proud of myself but the whole experience just helped make everything else bad going on seem worse.

The I’d Rather Skip in 2025

• I fell down a lot. To the point that I hurt myself and discovered that I have osteoarthritis and need both knees replaced. They can’t do that until I lose a little weight. I mean can that just not be on the menu for 2025. Falling is painful, I can’t get up as easily, and now my knees hurt all the time.
• I felt hopeless and didn’t accomplish much. Off and on the entire year felt like one big lazy moment. I stopped setting my alarm to get up, I put off things and work that I needed to do, I cancelled plans, I just didn’t do or accomplish anything it feels like. It feels like I wallowed the entire year. I cried more last year than I have ever had in my life.
• I burned my hand badly. I took a roasting pan out of the oven, using pot holders. Then put the pop holders down and proceeded to grab the handles of the pan. Thankfully my right hand (my dominant one) let go of the pan right away but I couldn’t seem to make my left hand let go. It felt like five minutes of me holding that piping hot pan. It was actually like one but I ended up buying that hand badly.

I have high hopes for 2025 but lets face it, everyone starts the new year off full of high hopes and feeling great about it. I spent the last few days of last year taking some time off and getting things set up for this year. I wrote out a lot of things and just tried to make sure I came in 2025 prepared. Fingers crossed that I signed up for the correct package of Joy and Prosperity!