Remember the story from the old testament about the woman who was told to hang a red string or ribbon in her window and her family would be spared? She did and they lived. We are taught that is all the faith we need. A single thread. Well my thread is raggedy and about the break into.
I have asked, begged, yelled, everything to find the answers and faith I need from God. Yet it seems he is silent. Other times I tell myself he is simply too busy to worry about me. For as long as I can remember no matter what happened I always said “Don’t worry. God will take care of it.”
Now I feel as though God is punishing me. Like everyone else I am not perfect and make mistakes. I apologize and ask for forgiveness and hope God forgives. My question now is what if he doesn’t? What if God has decided he’s had enough? How many chances do you think God gives us?
I want to believe again but I don’t know if I can find a way.
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God has always known everything you have done and will do. There is nothing you could do that would make him leave you. I remember when I felt just like you do now. I felt God wasn’t listening; I couldn’t feel his presence. So I put him out of my mind. It seemed easier to just not think about God. I can say that was the worst few years in my life, I was completely miserable. Still today, I have never heard God speak to me, but I see his actions in my life. I know he loves us. Stay in his word and continue to pray, it will get better!
I am praying that God will give you peace.