That is a position that I have not really been in, well in more weeks than I can tell you. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to pray or talk with God it was just that I found it easier to get through the day without having prayers unanswered without feeling the way I was always left feeling at the end of the day. So I stopped altogether, sort of. There were always times when I would catch myself talking to God anyway. However the urge to pray again has really been strong and I don’t really fight it as I try to refocus my attention.
It is not that I have turned my back on God I just wanted to let him do whatever he does without any input from me in any way. So now I am at that point when I am going to go down on my knees and just let the chips fall where they may. I mean after all I know that I need God’s help but I just don’t know what I am going to say. I know I need to apologize for being the petulant child that I am. There is so much more to say and I hope that the words will come when I get down onto my knees. I am sure that they will, I just need to get down and do it.
I live in a small Georgia town that you most likely have never heard of and I LOVE it! My house is more than full as I am a single mother of four & caregiver to my aging mother and uncle. Lover of all things Outlander. Goes to the beat of her own drum woman.
Denise Taylor-Dennis says
I can relate to what you are saying. Thankfully we follow a God that will always hear our prayers.
Rita says
Thankfully! I would be in so much trouble if he didn’t.
ginette4 says
I totally understand sometimes I feel the same way I’m sure most of us do at some time or another. it’s like have you forgotte about me, and here and would love to be heard.
Rita says
It does make you feel forgotten even though we know that we aren’t. Sometimes I think we need to take a break, pull back, and let God do his work. Our own hopes and fears can get in the way and cloud the issue.