This series is for God: Thank you for never giving up on me even when I gave up on you.
“It is no longer the same way.”
That is the text that shattered my world. A million thoughts went through my mind and I fell to my knees. I am getting ahead of myself though.
Edgar and I met 8 years earlier at my uncle’s house. It was love at first sight. The first night we met he talked to me like no one ever had before. The third night he kissed me and we have been together since. We spent a lot of time working through our cultural differences. Not to mention the family and friends who said it would never work. Every argument or fight I knew this was it. It was over but we always pulled through.
I wasn’t Edgar’s first and I knew that. I knew there were other things that I would have to adjust to. Children from before and I was okay with it. I loved this man and all of that was a part of him. It didn’t even bother me that I couldn’t speak to his mother ( I don’t speak Spanish and she doesn’t speak English.) He was my first. My first serious boyfriend, my first love, everything. He knew it and I think he secretly loved that.
I live in a small Georgia town that you most likely have never heard of and I LOVE it! My house is more than full as I am a single mother of four & caregiver to my aging mother and uncle. Lover of all things Outlander. Goes to the beat of her own drum woman.
Tammy S says
You have got to be one of the most open persons I have ever known. You talk about the things that we have all experienced but most people are afraid to say them out load. I am so proud of how strong you have become. Stay strong. Thank you fro having the courage to share with us.
Rita says
I was so nervous about sharing this but something just told me to.
Daisy says
How sweet! You are lucky to find him in the beginning. It took me a while to find my husband.
Rita says
I feel lucky and hope that I continue to be just as lucky.
Ang says
I think it’s commendable that despite all the odds you still managed to pull through. I know how hard it is when people just don’t think you’re going to work out but I’d say you showed them. 🙂
Rita says
We are still working very hard but there is light at the end of our dark tunnel.
Amanda Ripsam says
you have a beautiful blog and I love the lay out I also love this article. My husband and I met online over 8 years ago and were still together and happy. We have had our ups and downs and at a time I too lost faith in myself and my relationship as some times life gives us many struggles.
thanks for sharing and I agree with the commenter above it’s brave move to share your faith so beautifully and in a non bible thumping way which I appreciate.
Rita says
Thank you Amanda. I have worked hard to make this blog something special. Life does give us many struggles and it in those moments we find our strength.
Charli says
You are so open and honest – I love that. People can learn from you – if they find themselves in a similar situation, they can read your story and learn from how you’ve allowed God to repair your faith and relationship. I think that is wonderful. Thank you for sharing this with everyone.
Rita says
Thanks Charli, it is a struggle but I am learning to turn it all over to God.
Manda says
My husband and I went through a very very rough spot in our marriage that lasted about 4 years. Thank you so much for opening up about these private moments. It helps to know others have or are going through the same thing and are coming out of it stronger then ever.
Rita says
I just felt so compelled to so. There is much more to come still.
ginette4 says
How great is our God! put everything in his hands and everything will work out, my Mother tells me daily that you need God in your life, he makes things go so easily, when I don’t take the time to be with God everything runs amuck! Thank you for being so honest!
Rita says
God does work in mysterious ways.
Deb Dianne says
In the past few weeks I have been thinking of my High School sweetheart, my first, who still lives in our hometown and is a successful manager there. I saw a pic of his daughter about to get married. Still think of him after 35 years.
Rita says
I guess we never really get over our first loves
Tina says
I love the title. It says a lot. Love is the most powerful emotion.
Rita says
Yes it is.
Jean says
I hope there will be more posts in this series eventually. I want to know how it comes out! I’m sure it’s difficult to write about something as it’s unfolding though. Rooting for you.