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Out of the Darkness: How God Repair My Broken Faith and Relationship

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This series is for God: Thank you for never giving up on me even when I gave up on you.

“It is no longer the same way.”

That is the text that shattered my  world. A million thoughts went through my mind and I fell to my knees. I  am getting ahead of myself though.

Edgar and I met 8 years earlier at my uncle’s house. It was love at  first sight. The first night we met he talked to me like no one ever had  before. The third night he kissed me and we have been together since. We spent a lot of time  working through our cultural differences. Not to  mention the family and friends who said it would never work. Every  argument or fight I knew this was it. It was over but we always pulled  through.

I wasn’t Edgar’s first and I knew that. I knew there were other things  that I would have to adjust to. Children from before and I was okay with  it. I loved this man and all of that was a part of him. It didn’t even  bother me that I couldn’t speak to his mother ( I don’t speak Spanish and she doesn’t speak English.) He was my first. My first serious boyfriend, my  first love, everything. He knew it and I think he secretly loved that.

 

 

 

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  1. You have got to be one of the most open persons I have ever known. You talk about the things that we have all experienced but most people are afraid to say them out load. I am so proud of how strong you have become. Stay strong. Thank you fro having the courage to share with us.

  3. I think it’s commendable that despite all the odds you still managed to pull through. I know how hard it is when people just don’t think you’re going to work out but I’d say you showed them. 🙂

  4. you have a beautiful blog and I love the lay out I also love this article. My husband and I met online over 8 years ago and were still together and happy. We have had our ups and downs and at a time I too lost faith in myself and my relationship as some times life gives us many struggles.
    thanks for sharing and I agree with the commenter above it’s brave move to share your faith so beautifully and in a non bible thumping way which I appreciate.

    • Thank you Amanda. I have worked hard to make this blog something special. Life does give us many struggles and it in those moments we find our strength.

  5. You are so open and honest – I love that. People can learn from you – if they find themselves in a similar situation, they can read your story and learn from how you’ve allowed God to repair your faith and relationship. I think that is wonderful. Thank you for sharing this with everyone.

  6. My husband and I went through a very very rough spot in our marriage that lasted about 4 years. Thank you so much for opening up about these private moments. It helps to know others have or are going through the same thing and are coming out of it stronger then ever.

  7. How great is our God! put everything in his hands and everything will work out, my Mother tells me daily that you need God in your life, he makes things go so easily, when I don’t take the time to be with God everything runs amuck! Thank you for being so honest!

  8. In the past few weeks I have been thinking of my High School sweetheart, my first, who still lives in our hometown and is a successful manager there. I saw a pic of his daughter about to get married. Still think of him after 35 years.

  10. I hope there will be more posts in this series eventually. I want to know how it comes out! I’m sure it’s difficult to write about something as it’s unfolding though. Rooting for you.