When I look in the mirror I see a woman who is anything but fit. If I am being totally honest there are moments when I see a fat, lazy, slob. There I said it! Now I’m going to lay all of that aside and say I am totally not fit. But I’m gonna be! I’m beginning to get fit. Let me tell you this crap ain’t easy. If you are fit, eat right, and exercise everyday…… YOU ARE MY HERO! That’s right you are. I’m struggling with it but am taking it one day at a time.
Currently I weigh close to 230 pounds and if you knew how hard it was for me to admit that you would be amazed. I don’t even look at the scale at the doctor’s office. I hide my eyes. I have no full length mirror nor anything else that shows how I look. I didn’t want to see it. After all, I know that I am overweight. I feel about mirrors the same way I felt about my uncle’s ex who felt she needed to send me exercise videos all the time. That they were all (her included) the spawn of Satan.
It’s one step forward and two steps back but I don’t have any huge goals. I feel like if I set goals I would be setting myself for failure. Trust me it happens every single time. The only goal I have is to be able to walk for thirty minutes straight and not be winded.
Don’t worry I’m gonna share with all of you my journey, tips, moments I want to kill for chocolate, and more. After all what fun is the journey if I go it alone? I don’t expect this journey to be an easy one and I will honest and say that I will probably fail. I know that sets me up for failure but I am not overly excited about all this. I just know that it is so far past time that I did it that it isn’t funny. I have to do this for myself but a little part of me is doing it for all of those people who have ever told me that I couldn’t. That I would also be the fat chick and they wouldn’t bother trying to be anything else.
There is also a small tiny part of me that is doing it to show my ex that he didn’t get to win. Total childish but after the hell that jackwad put me through I can’t help it. If that seems harsh know I just finished shredded a bunch of papers and journals where I wrote all of the things he said and/or did. So as I write this post I am feeling a little raw. I had to go out and walk for a bit before I could sit down and get my thoughts together for this post.
One thing that I am doing is some Workout Challenges I found on Pinterest. I am going to pick one, follow along for the thirty days and then live blogging it every day. Well, most days because I am sure there will be days that I forget to make a little note. This will all be in one post and if you look over in the sidebar you will see July’s Challenge. Feel free to follow along with me and I would love your comments on how you are doing each day.
I live in a small Georgia town that you most likely have never heard of and I LOVE it! My house is more than full as I am a single mother of four & caregiver to my aging mother and uncle. Lover of all things Outlander. Goes to the beat of her own drum woman.
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I am really loving your new blog. I wish you the best of luck in all the goals you are trying to achieve!
Thank you so much. I am thrilled that you are loving the new blog.
Got to keep fit, it’s great for your well being! 🙂
Thank you so much!
I’m glad to know that I am not the only one that refuses to set goals because not making them would make me feel like a failure. Kudos to you on your fresh start and I wish the best success.
It just feels so awful to know I didn’t reach my goal.
This is an interesting post and one that I can related to. I always miss my goals
Me too! I am failing at this so badly right now.
You got this!! I love this blog post!
Thank you so much!
I’ve come to accept i will never be a size 2 again. I actually feel my healthiest right now & it’s surely above standards. I’m making small goals.
that is how i feel if i set the goal its like i know i cant but i still try i think its better for me to do it and just think of no goals cause its like work i know i hate so in my mind the hapiness i get is lets have fun its better that way before you know it ive done more than my goal
Good for you! At least you are taking the first step.
I feel the same way. after not working out for many years I signed up for a 10 week fitness challenge and I am in week 8. I haven’t lost too much weight but I feel great and my clothes are fitting much better.
Wishing you the best. Your leggings are super cute btw!
i HAVE NEVER BEEN FIT EITHER. i AM TRYING!
I have been fit on and off throughout my life, but no matter what, i have always been overweight. I think the key is to focus on diet/eating healthy more so than the exercises. although exercise is great for general health and wellbeing. 🙂
I have not been fit for a number of years but was told today I need to start some type of exercise program. So here goes in the next few weeks to see what it is that I want as well as need to do and take it from there.
I am no fit chick either! and I also do the one step forward two steps back dance. I can only offer that you are not alone.
I don’t exercise at all these days. I used to be very active and fit. Hoping to get more physically active now that my kids are a bit older, and they can go with me.
You can do it! I didn’t think I could and walking every day really helped. Thanks for your blog! Seeing your struggle helps us that think it’s impossible. Up and Downtimes but I’m behind you.
I think we as women , we like to pick over everything about ourselves from , clothing, hair, make up, weight ( to small, to big) .. I think its great to work out for yourself , for healthier reasons, I know in the past I have done what you have done, I started working out thinking I was going to show my ex LOL, but I forgot about healing myself.. I’m not saying I know everything, because this girl here, well’ i’m only a raindrop in the mist of all the rain. This year I kept telling myself I want to work out for me, and I have , just not as much, I little for me and i’m happy.
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Same for me! It has taken me so long to finally get on a routine of being healthy and making myself workout. It took many fails for me to find what works for me! I try to stay away from fast food and junk food. If I don’t have sweets in my house then I won’t be tempted to eat them! And I have realized working out helps my stress and anxiety so much that I actually look forward to it now.
nice of you to share your journey
I suck at working out. With four kids it’s hard to fit it in my schedule.
I hope you are getting fit. Walking is great exercise, it is cheap, and anyone can do it. Start small and build. A nice series is by Leslie Sansone. She is on DVD it is Walk Away the Pounds.
When I was younger it mattered more to me. Now, the things in life that are important don’t include being in tip top shape.