Have you ever thought that? I find I do more and more these days. I talk to God frequently but there are times when I wonder am I just talking to myself. Faith is something that you have it don’t have. I have always had faith even in those moments when I think I don’t. It is something that is just always there pulling at the back of my mind and soul.
My problem is that I have such a desire to feel God that I lose sight if the faith I already have. I want to feel that “relationship” that I have made up I my mind I should have with God. I separate faith and God for whatever reason when I know they are one and the same. I have a need to pray or whatever and then be able to let whatever the issue is so because I know that God will take care of it. When instead I send days worrying and fretting over something may end up being nothing.
I think and analyze things too much. I know I need to pray more and spend more time with God but I can give a thousand reasons why I am too busy today and will add it to my list. The problem is it should be at the top of my list. That relationship I am always searching for might come more easily. If you saw the list of things I need or want to get done in a day you would think I am crazy. Putting God first on my list is something I am working on and it may take me a while but I will get there.
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My favorite Bible verse is: Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
– King James Bible
So even when we feel like we are alone, or not being heard, it’s a prison of our own, God is always there.
I like that! thanks Barbara!
First of all I just want to say that I love the new design of your website. I had a really bad ear infection and now I’m just feeling so much better. This month has been so hard for me and as you say sometimes I question if God can hear me or if he’s with me. I know he is but when the storm comes and everything is just not going as we thought it would we just want to give up. My mother is always telling us put God first on your list and the rest will come but we make up excuses and he always ends at last when he should be our first priority.
Vanessa I am glad that you are feeling better and love the new design.I am struggling putting God anywhere on the list right now.
I love this post and I thank you for it. Yes I find myself asking this too now that I have been battling this latest Lupus flare for over a year. I find that even as I am telling myself By His Stripes I Am Healed, I wonder when? I know it is all in God’s time, not my own, but I pray every day many times and I will have chats with God during the day, but yes I wonder sometimes if He hears me.
Here is a verse that I think makes sense in light of this post/conversation
But rather seek you the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Luke 12:31
I have been really trying to put God first in my life, it is always a process of continual improvement.
I do get that feeling sometimes that I can not be heard. Sometimes though when I do get that feeling I have to sit and tell myself my favorite country song “Unanswered Prayers” that says some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. My lists are always way over zealous and I have renamed my to do list the train of thought derailer because I always seem to forget something, not take time to myself, or neglect important relationships like with God.
I try to spend time with God daily, it doesn’t always happen. I’ve been doing pretty good lately: getting up at 6am, reading my Bible. My days always seem to go more smoothly when I take the time to read my Bible. It’s the most important relationship I have and I need to take care of it.
That is what I am working towards as well.
I do believe God hears me every day. I think the answer He offers can be found many times in different forms we expect. Keeping our heart open can allow each of us to recognize God’s work.