I am still in pursuit if God and while there are days when it seems very easy most days it is hard. I read an article recent by a former atheist who said that in all the years she didn’t believe on God she was constantly trying to prove he didn’t exist only to discover later that it was God who was pursuing her and was always on her mind.
I feel that way as well. I feel as though through my constant pursuit and need for proof that god is always on my mind and maybe I am more the pursue rather than the pursuer. Maybe in tune constant search I have my answer but because of the jadedness the world has taught me I don’t realize it.I long for the day when I feel God’s presence in my life and know that his hand is always on my back. Today as you leave your prayer requests I ask that you remember me and pray that I have a little peace this week, a little hope.
Please remember that I will be praying for all of you as this week progresses. The funny thing is a few moments ago I felt the best sense of peace and I can only hope that the feeling lasts all week. I am determined that this week will be the week that everything falls into place for me.
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As someone who has classed themselves as everything from agnostic, atheist and even pagan/wiccan (during my teenage years!) I think you have hit the nail on the head for me with this sentence – “[she] didn’t believe on God she was constantly trying to prove he didn’t exist only to discover later that it was God who was pursuing her and was always on her mind”
Whilst I am not at a point to “accept” God in my life, I know that as I am I growing older I am beginning to lean away from the whole “I must have proof to believe concept. I want to believe, but not quite there yet…if you get me 🙂
Sorry for the ramble!
Thank you for all your prayers for my brother. He had open heart surgery and it was a success. I appreciate each and every one of you praying. My prayer request is to pray that I will be able to afford the extra bills that I have right now. God always provides and I am thankful.
I had a very difficult time believing in God when my father was dying from cancer. I remember saying to the priest that I was mad at God and didn’t know if I still believed in him any more. The priest told me that it’s okay to be mad and God and question him and his plans. One of the most important things the father told me that no matter what you are saying to God, in anger or in joy at least you are still talking to him. That has helped me through many struggles. Rita, you will get an extra prayer from me tonight.
Please pray for the Dennis family finances, its a tough time at the moment but we are working through it and with God’s help and prayers I know we will get through it. If I look back on my life I can really feel like God has been with me all along and brought me through so many tough times.
Prayers have become more important to my family as time goes on. So many people struggle daily and if prayers give comfort I send everyone prayers.
You are so sweet. I love reading your posts. I will definitely say a prayer for you. Have you every tried journaling about your journey with God? I haven’t done it for a while, but when I did, I was closer than I’ve ever been with Him. I would just write my thoughts, things that happened that day, prayer requests, answered prayers, etc. It was really neat sometimes as I was writing about things that had happened during the day, I would realize, “that HAD to have been God moving!”
Prayer was the hardest thing for me ever when I was younger………(i was involved with alcohol and drugs until I was 28) i am 51 now and have been sober for 24+ years……..I struggled with the GOD concept in sobriety for the first couple of years. I just didn’t know how to accept love of something I couldn’t see, until one day I saw and I felt. It took awhile to realize that God was the one that was saving and keeping sober a drunk like me, and since that day, I thank him for every day I have…………even the bad ones………..although it may be later than sooner on some days,,,,,,,,,I feel his presence every day.
Wow, this post has been here a while! I do have a prayer request- my hubby has cancer and has surgery next Thursday. Help me to give him the support he needs and keep us both energized for the coming days. Thank you Lord!