As a parent I am supposed to say my children. As a daughter I should say my mother. As a sister I could say my siblings. Get where I’m going here. While all of those people are great joys and blessings in my life my greatest joy is much more simpler.
It is the little bit of time I get when the world (at least everyone in my world) is sleeping. Whether that time Is before they wake or after they go to bed I get the most joy out of that time. It that little bit of time when it is only me. I am left with my thoughts from the day or the day to come.
It’s my time to reflect on things, make plans, or just read. I a, so many things to so many different people that there are weeks where I don’t know where one day begins and another ends. I need those moments to make sense of the craziness that is my life. It gets hectic, I forget to take out things for dinner, or worst I decide to try something new and burn it. Things don’t go according to plan.
Then I will have a morning like this morning where everything is quiet in my bedroom except the little snores from Sam because he had a rough night and I let him sleep with me. Looking at his little face makes everything I do worth it. He’s lying on his back with his arms above his head and his little mouth hanging open. If I was alone I would read or watch some television but with him in the bed I never do.
I never sleep well when he has a rough night. I worry he will have an asthma attack and I won’t hear it. They scare the heck out of me because he is so young. He’s only four and it freaks the fudge out. I still use a baby monitor in his room to help me hear him and if he has a single one I put in my bed.
Now listening to his snores I know that the day will be better than the night. I know this is part of our normal. I will make a note on the calendar that he had a couple during the night along with all of the other notes I keep. That way I can share it with his doctor.
Thankfully his doctor understands and accepts my level of crazy. I remind myself in those quiet moments that I can let go a little. I also spent some time telling myself this morning that today I would relax. I wouldn’t freak if the day didn’t go according to plan. Sitting there I feel a peace that I only get during those few moments.
I know that I will have to leave the quiet cocoon of my bedroom and start the day. There will be breakfast to make, kids to get off to school, a giant pile of laundry, medicines to pick up, and appointments to keep. But for that small amount of time I am reminded of why I do it every day and why I will continue to do it every day. Even the ones I don’t feel like doing it on.
What is the greatest joy in your life at the moment? Share it with us in the comments below.
I live in a small Georgia town that you most likely have never heard of and I LOVE it! My house is more than full as I am a single mother of four & caregiver to my aging mother and uncle. Lover of all things Outlander. Goes to the beat of her own drum woman.
Barrie says
the greatest joy in my life is solitude. I raised a fantastic child who is finishing her junior year in college. My hubby and i are thinking about retirement and what we will be doing. and i am learning that there is a lot to me that doesn’t involve anyone but me!
Angela Saver says
MY GREATEST JOY IN MY LIFE IS MY FAMILY! I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL HUSBAND & KIDS. OUR KIDS ARE ADULTS AND IVE LEARNED THAT WE WILL NEVER STOP WORRYING ABOUT OUR CHILDREN, AT ANY AGE.
michele pineda says
It is great when you have me time for yourself, i often am busy and rushed during the day, and a few hours at night for me to read, plan my week ahead or maybe watch a tv show are precious. sometimes just a bubble bath with some aromatherapy work wonders. i worry about my children and grandchildren and elderly mom daily, but there are times i just need to focus on me.
Sarah L says
Enjoy the time you have to yourself. think about all that you have to be thankful for.
Rust says
I am very much the same way. I enjoy my time to myself, alone with my thoughts. This doesn’t mean I don’t also enjoy and cherish my time with those who are my world, but time to self is important to rejuvenate.
Nidhi Chauhan says
The greatest joy in my life is my little boy. I love seeing him LEARNING new things everyday. love his smiling faces and spending quality time with him.
Anne says
For me, the greatest joy is found in nature, even in my own back yard. Yesterday I was filled with joy when I followed a wren’s call, then watched her fetching insects and traced her back to her three fledglings in some bushes. It’s pretty special to have the privilege to WITNESS something like that!
Deanna Marissa says
Seeing my kids happy faces daily is truly the greatest joy of my life. Love watching them grow so quickly.
Donna Porter says
The greatest joy in my life is my fur baby. She loves unconditionally, greets me after a long day and is there through all the good and bad.